I uninstalled the Insight Timer application. So yesterday morning, I used the standard timer on my phone, mistakenly set it up to 20 hours and realised something was wrong only when I heard my neighbors leaving for work. The last social media / entertainment application that remains on my phone is YouTube. But this one … Continue reading 19 Jan. Stress.
I manage to sit every day. I am delighted. Not because I am getting anywhere but because I am doing what is right, what feels natural. It is not always pleasant. Sometimes it is hard. But it always feels right. Here I am sitting on the floor in my living room. Here is my body. … Continue reading 15 Jan. Doing what’s right.
At the entrance to the pub in Dublin where I was celebrating New Year there was this security guy who was holding a huge mala while persistently turning the beads. What a peculiar sight among all the late night drinking mess. He just stood there, hardly moving at all, looking pretty dangerous, calmly scanning his … Continue reading 9 Jan. Ordinary pain.
I watched Black Mirror: Bandersnatch. It got me thinking about free will. I came across this article that states: Many neuroscientists, armed with functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI) and other brain scanning tools, argue that, now that we can peer into the brain, we can see that there is no "agent" there making choices. Is Buddhism … Continue reading 5 Jan. Free will. Freddy Mercury.
I have realised that subconsciously I had been expecting that my Buddhist practice would eradicate all the pain from my life. Did Thich Quang Duc suffered? Or did he just experience pain? I have finished listening to an audio-book "Can't hurt me" by David Goggins. A great book about pain. In one of his talks, … Continue reading 4 Jan. Pain. Suffering. Nembutsu.
So I was sitting in a meeting in work staring through the window, completely ignoring a large display on the wall as well as the whole discussion going on in the room. 2018. 36 years old. I thought about my last day in primary school. When I left the building with the cert in my … Continue reading 26 Dec. Controlling.
I got up at 3 AM like a complete fool again. I sat down to meditate at 4. I started off with 500 Nembutsu recitations, followed by 50 minutes of shikantaza. It was hard. It was easy. Suffering is caused by ego. More ego = more suffering. More humility = less suffering. This is what … Continue reading 7 Dec. As-it-is.