I missed meditation on Friday. Thursday and Friday were very tough. Delightful sleepless night on Thursday. Half-asleep in work on Friday. At home - not as patient with my kids as I should have been. Very tired. Ridiculous thoughts about getting old. I can deal with pain, hunger, and thirst. But not with sleep deprivation. This … Continue reading 24 June. I forgot.
So I've been playing around with Transcendental Meditation for the past few days. TM certainly offers some very pleasant experiences. It relaxes me. It is great. Except it is not. Except it is. What I'm missing in this method is... Buddhism that offers me so much more than just pleasant experiences. My motivation to meditate … Continue reading 23 June. Farewell to TM practice.
I seem to be back on my routine of sitting twice a day for 20 minutes. For the past few days - only mantra practice. Yesterday, I stole 20 minutes from my lunch break to meditate. I moved my car to the distant part of the car-park. Sat comfortably inside, closed my eyes and started … Continue reading 21 June. TM.
I sat last night. Kitchen. Chair. Back straight. Eyes closed. 15 minutes of repeating mantra. Gently. Effortlessly. So important: gently and effortlessly. At the same time, with each out-breath, relaxing the body more and more. Until the body felt hollow. Remaining 5 minutes - a very pleasant experience of peace and... I guess nothingness or … Continue reading 20 June. Effortlessly.
I didn't get to meditate in the mornings on Saturday and Sunday. I managed to meditate in the evenings though. Over the weekend - some tensions with people. I hate when it happens. Unavoidable, though. So easy to become reactive and judgmental. That's the biggest harm - not what others do to you, but how … Continue reading 19 June. Metta.
I didn't get to sit this morning. I overslept. I slept nine hours. I don't remember when I last slept longer than seven. Unusually good weather in Ireland exhausts me. It means spending the whole day outside in the scourging sun minding and entertaining my children. Not even one cloud in the sky. No wind. And the temperatures … Continue reading 18 June. The “Heart Sutra” and what Irish and Martian summers have in common.
Last night my kids stayed outside playing much longer than usual. It was getting ridiculously late. I didn't want to start sitting at midnight... And I didn't want to spoil their fun. So while my wife was waiting for them in my usual meditation spot (kitchen) I retired to the second most spiritually charged location in the … Continue reading 17 June. Feeding the multitude.