Last night - 30 minutes: 20 minutes of mantra followed by 10 minutes of shikantaza. I had to work hard to fight off the drowsiness. This morning, the same routine, however I was much more rested. More mindful. It was a better sitting. I think that my anapanasati practice slowly evolves into shikantaza. I find … Continue reading 18 Oct. My first uposatha.
I sleep like a baby. I actually missed my morning meditation Today and yesterday. This is how long and deep I sleep. On Sunday, I finally bought a new zafu (meditation cushion). I’m delighted. It’s green. Firm. Just the right size. It’s beautiful. I set up a candle next to my Buddha statue I keep … Continue reading 17 Oct. Meditating with Ophelia.
Last week was a nightmare. A 6-day streak of sleeping problems. I can go on without many things other people can't do without... but limit my sleep, and I fall apart. And this is exactly what happened on Friday. My mindfulness and skillfulness went to the dogs. It gets me thinking. I can meditate and ponder … Continue reading 16 Oct. I had one job…
I skipped the gym during my lunch break yesterday to meditate in the car instead. I fell asleep. This morning I woke up before 4 am... again. Not sure how, but I managed to meditate for 40 minutes, after just a few hours of sleep. It went surprisingly well: 20 minutes of mantra, 1 minute … Continue reading 13 Oct. No Buddhism.
I continue to sit every single day. Twice a day. I keep practicing TM. Lack of sleep prevents me from going deep. It is however still a pleasant and relaxing experience, but I feel there is much more to it. On Tuesday, worries woke me up at 2 AM and I only managed to fall … Continue reading 12 Oct. Must. Meditate. Must. Meditate.
Lack of sleep gets in the way of my practice. I just can't get the sleep I need. It's either worry or the kids that wake me up in the middle of the night. When I'm up at 3 or 4 am and then try to meditate before leaving to work - my thoughts are … Continue reading 10 Oct. Sleeplessness.
Friday night - not even 10 minutes of mantra meditation. Exhausted. Drowsy. Saturday morning, an hour: 40 minutes of mantra followed by 20 minutes of mindfulness of breath. Not enough sleep. Racing thoughts, but also quite a few moments of total silence. Hard work. A lot of nonsensical thoughts created by the tired mind. No point … Continue reading 8 Oct. Stress and worry, and the wisdom of the body.