Last night I meditated with a great difficulty. Again. After the sitting I was even more exhausted and tired than before. Yet another difficult sitting at the end of a difficult day. So what? Not a big deal. Nothing to write a novel about (a blog post, at most!).
It doesn’t appear I’m about to enter jhanas any time soon. Instead, I’m pretty sure I’ve become an expert in acceptance. I can let go of expectations and disappointments as easily as other meditators achieve Samadhi. I won’t even mention being able to sleep sitting up with my back perfectly straight while maintaining an exemplary dhyana mudra.
I knew that meditation efforts would pay off one day.
Last night, before closing my eyes, I reminded myself: keep a straight spine, relax with every out-breath, don’t expect, don’t judge, be grateful for the practice and appreciate your own efforts.
I’m looking forward to my one hour sitting tomorrow morning. I’m looking forward to my 20-30 minutes sitting tonight. So simple: keep a straight spine, relax with every out-breath, don’t expect, don’t judge, be grateful for the practice and appreciate your own efforts.
Bad At Being Still 