My mornings are often filled with negative self-talk and nerves-wrecking inner-chatter. I have decided to dive into the Nembutsu practice headfirst and abandon any efforts to reconcile it with my rational mind. Not because I think that Nembutsu would not pass the scrutiny of my rational mind but because there is nothing rational about my mind.
I continue to practice anapanasati as well (mindfulness of breathing). I don’t see any contradiction between the two. Both are wonderful. Both are helpful.