Sometimes my mind is so quiet during meditation. This morning however sitting through those 40 minutes was really a chore. My mind was busy with liking and disliking, longing and fear, desire and anger.
A thought occurred to me that both liking and disliking are not really that different, that they serve the same purpose – defining and solidifying boundaries of ego. It’s all the same really. It’s just my mind lying to me again.
And yet… it was so great to be able to sit on my cushion at 6AM on that dark, wet and cold Tuesday morning. So great. Like showing the middle finger to the world. And then not running away.
Bad At Being Still 