I woke up pretty late this morning. Good. For the first few seconds, my mind was like a blank canvas. And then all those thoughts started to appear: I need coffee - and I became a person who needs coffee. I need nicotine - and I became a person who needs a smoke (vape... actually). … Continue reading 21 Sep. Thoughts.
I woke up at 4 AM. It took me an hour to fully wake up. I sat down to mediate at 5. I spent an hour on the cushion. I was tired. I was sleepy. I was cold. I sat there being present in my body, observing my breath and thoughts. My thoughts... What an … Continue reading 20 Sep. Chuckle.
After the sitting last night, I realised that I didn’t experience any drowsiness at all. As a matter of fact, I haven’t experienced any for quite some time. How did it happen? This is something I had been struggling with for years. I also struggled with pain in lower back. Both issues – gone. It … Continue reading 19 Sep. The Observer. Desire. Drowsiness.
Meditation - very good. Very pleasant. I want to sit. I sit for a bit longer these days. But I could sit for much longer even. I just follow my breath. My meditation doesn't last for 20 or 30 or 40 minutes. My meditation lasts for 20 or 30 or 40 seconds. Then a thought … Continue reading 17 Sep. A holly tree.
Inspired by this blog post here I thought about desire. That I have never really considered it to be a form of suffering. Not getting what I want - yes, that's suffering! But desire - no. The more I think about it the more I understand that desire is like physical pain, like loneliness, like … Continue reading 13 Sep. Desire.
My first re-post on WordPress. A great post from a great blog. Become mindful of the early signs of desire — that initial pull or force that pro-pels your attention toward the desirable object. Distinguish between the force of desire and the object or perception that is attractive to you. Is the force of crav-ing … Continue reading Early Signs of Desire — Cattāri Brahmavihārā
I set the alarm to 5 AM this morning, so I could meditate a bit longer before leaving for work. But it didn't work out at all as it took me an hour and two damn good coffees to fully wake up (versus 20 minutes and one damn good coffee when I wake up at … Continue reading 6 Sep. Happy person. Angry person. Sad person.