This morning - so pleasant. Hundreds of silent, effortless Nembutsu repetitions. Then - after 15 minutes or so - I shifted my attention to the breath and experienced silence, relieve, rest. It really reminds me of the Transcendental Meditation technique. But it's different. Rather than filling my head with meaningless sound, I fill it in … Continue reading 17 Jul. Good deeds.
So I’m still paying the price for my unskilful behaviour last week. I have a very scrupulous conscience. I have spent the last couple of days in hell of overthinking, remorse and catastrophizing. Now, more than ever, I dedicate myself to Nembutsu. I find a great relief in this practice. It takes my mind off … Continue reading 16 Jul. Anguish. Nembutsu. Peace.
I found a talk D.T Suzuki gave before the members of the New York Buddhist Academy in the spring of 1958 (here) about Pure Land. Everything that he says encourages me to explore this path. This birth does not take place after what is called death. To sincere followers of the Pure Land, instead of … Continue reading 15 Jul. D. T. Suzuki on Pure Land Buddhism. Pure Land. Part 3/3.
What really helped me to make up my mind about Pure Land Buddhism was the last 8 minutes of the talk by James Dobbins on D. T. Suzuki’s presentation of Pure Land Buddhism titled “Going to hell chanting Amida Buddha’s name”. Here is Suzuki’s interpretation of Pure Land: Suzuki shifts the focus from life after … Continue reading 14 Jul. D. T. Suzuki on Pure Land Buddhism. Pure Land. Part 2/3.
So I tried to read a bit about the authenticity of Pure Land Buddhism here, here, here and here. I found some of the arguments put forward for its validity very compelling but others very disturbing and hard to accept, especially those that tried to reduce the role of Shakyamuni Buddha to being merely a prophet for Amitha (here). For … Continue reading 13 Jul. Pure Land. Part 1/3.
I missed meditation yesterday. So hard to find the time. I'd rather take care of my family than meditate. Meditation is so pleasant lately. I'm looking forward to meditating today. Reciting Nembutsu before mindfulness of breathing practice is so effective in calming the mind. It's amazing. My meditation becomes a sort of ceremony... It starts … Continue reading 11 Jul. Faith. Confusion.
I think a lot about Pure Land. I try to disprove it. I try to find flaws and dishonesty in its claims. Two things that came into my mind: Doubt. Since the Pure Land is an easy path - why did Gautama Buddha spent so man years teaching about the Four Noble Truths and the Noble Eightfold … Continue reading 9 Jul. Questions.