So grateful for my practice. I sit as much as I can. I don’t even have to force myself to do so. The more I do it the more everything else reveals itself as dukkha, anicca, anatta. And the eternal question: How much should I meditate each day? My answer – applicable to myself - … Continue reading 3 Oct 19.
My practice is flourishing. This morning, I sat for an hour. So simple. Watch the breath. Short. Long. Deep. Shallow. You are not breathing. When you are breathing, you want to control the breath. It is not even that your body is breathing. Not even - the body is breathing. A body is breathing. When … Continue reading 21 Sep 19. Lazarus of Bethany. Klingsor.
When I meditate each day, I observe how the default mode network in my brain takes over each time I lose my focus. And each time, I die a little bit. My body is there, but my mind is not. I pop in and out of existence. When my mind wanders - what is that which … Continue reading 14 Sep 19. I keep dying.
Awareness is the place of the deathless; unawareness is the place of death. The aware do not die; the unaware are as though dead already. And: You should see the world As a bubble, a mirage. If you look on it like this The King of Death can’t see you. The quotes from the Dhammapada. … Continue reading 9 Sep 19. Deathless.
Yesterday I meditated before leaving for work and after putting my kids to bed. Morning meditation was enjoyable. Evening sitting: one pointless anxious thought after another. This is my problem and the source of great suffering: anxious thoughts, worry about kids and work. So as I was meditating last night, my mind created one dreadful … Continue reading 5 Sep 19. Not my friend.
Last night I meditated in the bedroom: 15 minutes. Could have been 5. Could have been 1 hour. I don’t care. I couldn’t quite focus on my breath. My mind kept wandering off. And I suddenly realised: My God, I am not even able to focus on the breath for longer than 5 seconds. And … Continue reading 31 Aug. Everything is Dhamma. Don’t complain.
The more time I spend meditating the more time I find to meditate. July and August have been so hard with kids being off school. Work has been very stressful and busy too. I rarely could find even 10 minutes to sit. But when I eventually did sit a few days in a row more … Continue reading 24 Aug 19. More time.
...And so we say: Running out of time. No time left. Lost time. Make up for the lost time. Time flies. Kill time. Living on borrowed time. Take your time. The time is ripe. Time is money. We consider the time the gauge of our effectiveness. The judge of our lives. How wonderful would it … Continue reading 17 Aug 19. The tyranny of time.
I am listening to an audiobook by Yuval Noah Harari: Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind. Last night in a dream a realisation triggered by the book arose in me: how many of my unskillful (e.g. lustful) thoughts are nothing but my genes just doing their job. No religion, morality, culture required. It was like … Continue reading 16 Aug 19. What monkeys think about.
...I also think that this is precisely our concept of time that is forcing us to look at passing things and people as if they were disappearing in the distance (Einstein would say: And rightfully so!). Where has my youth gone? Where have all my friends gone? Where are those who were before us? Where … Continue reading 15 Aug 19. Time.