Inspired by this blog post here I thought about desire. That I have never really considered it to be a form of suffering. Not getting what I want - yes, that's suffering! But desire - no. The more I think about it the more I understand that desire is like physical pain, like loneliness, like … Continue reading 13 Sep. Desire.
I meditated last night. I'm delighted to come back to my regular practice. Meditation is so important to me. So important. I bow to my Buddha statue in great gratitude before and after the sittings. I followed my breath wherever it appeared in the body. It turns out that the breath can be found everywhere. … Continue reading 10 Apr. Thoughts.
Monday and Tuesday - 20 minutes before going to bed. I diligently maintained focus on my breath. My evening sittings are usually very challenging due to tiredness. But somehow I managed to sit without experiencing much drowsiness at all. I think it had something to do with the extra effort I put into maintaining concentration. … Continue reading 14 Dec. Concentration.
My daughter (who is always first to wake up) disturbed my morning meditation on Saturday morning. What was supposed to be an hour long sitting became 20 minutes long mind wandering. I'm ok with that. On Sunday, I sat a little bit earlier, set the timer for two hours. Soon, I realised that I forgot … Continue reading 4 Dec. Long sitting. Buddho.
Meditation is going great. Again. For now. Effortless. My attention is somewhere between the stillness and the emptiness of my body, steady and mechanical movement of my breath and the lively stream of thoughts. When I'm focused my thoughts stop flowing. When I'm not, the thinking process begins. The longer I manage to stay focused the … Continue reading 12 Nov. No funny hats required.
Meditation is going great. (Talking to myself: Just sit and focus on the breath/body. When the focus is there - thoughts are missing. When the focus is lost - mind wandering begins. It's either this or that. Time is a string of present moments, even if meditation was poor just a second ago, it is no … Continue reading 2 Nov. A wreck under blue sky.
A few days ago I took my son for a run. For the first time together. We were gone for an hour and a half. He didn’t stop talking even for a second. After a few minutes, he fell bruising his elbow. I asked him if he wanted to go back. He said no. He … Continue reading 31 Oct. Evening at the beach.
I went for a run. I admired the beauty of the trees. Their acceptance and stillness. Wisdom. Indifference. I wish I was more like a tree or a rock. I'm fed up with this constant movement. One-minute dramas. One-minute victories. One-minute worries. Oh boy, I wish that there was something I could do to become … Continue reading 29 Oct. One-minute life.
I didn’t get to meditate as much as I wanted to last weekend because… family life. Saturday morning. 7 AM. I'm meditating. Ten minutes in. My 3yo daughter walks in holding her favorite plush cat - lovingly by the face - and demands cookies for breakfast. And so on and so forth. I finally got … Continue reading 25 Sep. More trees.
Saturday morning - 40 minutes. Until my daughter woke up. I was hoping to sit much longer than that. Saturday night - 30 minutes. Sunday night - 20 minutes. Each of them - great: Whenever a thought arose I remembered that the present moment always overwrites the past. So as soon as I realized that my … Continue reading 18 Sep. Dark clouds on the horizon.