So easy to meditate when the expectations and goals are removed. Well... there is that remote, almost illusory goal and there is an expectation to achieve it... But as far as my daily sittings are concerned, I simply sit down and try to pay attention to my breathing. I try not to control my breath. I … Continue reading 4 Sep. Not me, not mine, not myself.
I continue not to think or read too much about Buddhism. Well... with the exception of the book called "The teachings of Ajahn Chah". I just can't help it. I like this book so much. It is a book about the mind more so than it is about Buddhism. I spend that extra time playing … Continue reading 31 Aug. Breathing.
I would often skip meditation whenever I didn't find at least 20 minutes to sit. I promised myself that from now on I will sit every single day. Even if for a minute. I came back to my mindfulness of breathing practice as taught in the Sutras. I’m not interested in going anywhere, achieving anything, … Continue reading 29 Aug. Anapanasati.
I keep thinking/reading about the Pure Land Buddhism. It is stressing me out. I have never thought that Buddhism will become such a burden. I'm trying to convince myself that the Pure Land practice is a legitimate one. But my doubts are growing as I see Pure Land apologetics bending over backwards trying to explain Pure … Continue reading 17 Aug. Allah, Zeus and Odin.
While driving to work today I silently recited nembutsu. It was scary to see how often my mind preferred to abandon the joyful mantra and ventured into the land of useless, selfish, and fearful thoughts. I find a relief in the Buddha-mindfulness practice. Thinking the mantra of Amida instead of reacting to thoughts and events … Continue reading 16 Aug. Imagining Pure Land.
Recently, I have been as unskillful as one could be. So hard to find time to meditate too. And I'm full of doubt about my nembutsu practice - I haven't been reciting Amida's name as much lately. Is Amida Buddha real? Or am I delusional and desperate? (Nembutsu practice brings me peace and wisdom - … Continue reading 15 Aug. Imagining Buddha.
I meditated for 10 minutes last night. This morning, I wasted over an hour browsing the Internet like a complete idiot. I should have meditated. I am listening to a talk by Ajahn Sumedho. He said that apart from the ordinary knowledge acquired from books and teachers, there is a knowledge that comes to us … Continue reading 10 Aug. Knowledge.