My Transcendental Meditation story: I find out that David Lynch is a practitioner, I want to try it, find out the cost, it's too expensive, I "research" TM online, try it, fail, adjust my practice, one night I experience bliss, the next day I fail, try some more, and abandon the practice. I come back … Continue reading 6 Oct. Acem. TM.
Last night I didn't feel like sitting at all. I had done 30 minutes in the morning already. Tired out after a long day full of tension, pressure, and stress. Despite everything, I sat for 20 minutes. It was so pleasant. So good. So calm. My theory: it was so because I didn't expect anything … Continue reading 4 Oct. Worry rhymes with victory.
My sittings on Sunday and Monday nights were terrible. It took a lot of effort to sit still for those 17 and 18 minutes. I was very sleepy. Very agitated and grumpy afterward. It felt more like doing push-ups than meditating. This morning - 30 minutes. My mind worrying all the time. No matter how … Continue reading 3 Oct. Bad meditation! Bad, bad meditation!
I sat for an hour on Saturday morning. Every 20 minutes - walking meditation for 30-60 seconds. I found myself refreshed and full of energy. Sitting or walking... it didn't matter as long as I managed to maintain mindfulness. I'm still very impressed by the theory of consciousness by Thomas Metzinger: the conscious self is … Continue reading 2 Oct. Eating consciousness.
Not sure where did I get it from, but I hold an opinion that once the nature of consciousness and self are understood everything else will fall into place. Until yesterday I had absolutely no evidence to back up my claim... And then a kind soul introduced me to Thomas Metzinger. According to Metzinger, consciousness … Continue reading 29 Sep. Not me, not mine, not my self.
After two days of feeding my disgusting creamed corn to Bob, I've realized few things. My efforts to put in practice even a single word of that sweet Buddhist wisdom are as impossible as trying to stop greenhouse effect on Venus. And also, that I’m able to go on for at least two days with nearly no … Continue reading 28 Sep. Feeding Bob.
Last night I sat for just 10 minutes. Kitchen. Chair. I suspected that I was getting sick again. I needed bed and rest. I didn't feel like sitting long. But what I didn't want even more was to go on even one day without meditation. So I sat down and practiced being aware of my … Continue reading 26 Sep. Tori Amos, Chopin, sickness, excitement. No excitement at all.