12 Jan. Not-Self.

Last night I only managed to sit for 15 minutes. My meditation was cut short. I was pretty sleepy and didn't manage to maintain mindfulness for longer than 20-30 seconds at a time. And the harder I tried to live up to my ideal of a meditator the more I failed. And then a thought … Continue reading 12 Jan. Not-Self.


11 Jan. Anapanasati.

Last night: 30 minutes. This morning 40. Anapanasati (mindfulness of breathing). I kept my attention on the physical sensation of the breath. Wherever I could detect it: belly, chest, nose. When a thought arose, I acknowledged it and then gently came back to the object of meditation. Without judging myself. Without reacting. And the thought … Continue reading 11 Jan. Anapanasati.

8 Jan. Shikantaza. When meditation backfires.

For the past few weeks I’ve been practising concentration using mindfulness of breathing technique. I enjoyed it. Meditation was pleasant. Moments of no-thought surprisingly long. However… when I did it before going to bed, even though I only sat for 20 or 30 minutes, I would sometimes have major difficulties falling asleep. After meditation, at … Continue reading 8 Jan. Shikantaza. When meditation backfires.