I watched Black Mirror: Bandersnatch. It got me thinking about free will. I came across this article that states: Many neuroscientists, armed with functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI) and other brain scanning tools, argue that, now that we can peer into the brain, we can see that there is no "agent" there making choices. Is Buddhism … Continue reading 5 Jan. Free will. Freddy Mercury.
I have realised that subconsciously I had been expecting that my Buddhist practice would eradicate all the pain from my life. Did Thich Quang Duc suffered? Or did he just experience pain? I have finished listening to an audio-book "Can't hurt me" by David Goggins. A great book about pain. In one of his talks, … Continue reading 4 Jan. Pain. Suffering. Nembutsu.
So I was sitting in a meeting in work staring through the window, completely ignoring a large display on the wall as well as the whole discussion going on in the room. 2018. 36 years old. I thought about my last day in primary school. When I left the building with the cert in my … Continue reading 26 Dec. Controlling.
I got up at 3 AM like a complete fool again. I sat down to meditate at 4. I started off with 500 Nembutsu recitations, followed by 50 minutes of shikantaza. It was hard. It was easy. Suffering is caused by ego. More ego = more suffering. More humility = less suffering. This is what … Continue reading 7 Dec. As-it-is.
With Soto Zen folks on Monday night again. It was so quiet in the dojo. No unnecessary sounds. No unnecessary movements. There were sounds of the street coming in through the window. I could hear them clearly. At the same time, it was quiet in the dojo. If you know what I mean. After meditation … Continue reading 4 Dec. Morning sitting. Shikantaza. Nembutsu.
I went to sit with Soto Zen folks again. I had to drive all the way to Dublin. The room was very cold. We sat from 7.30 PM until after 9 PM. The first 30 minutes were very bad: cold feet, cold nose, drowsiness. The next half an hour was way better. I sort of … Continue reading 1 Dec.
So we have moved into our new house recently. When I was closing the doors behind me for the last time, I thought about the anguish, drama, worry, stress and sleepless nights I had experienced in the house I was leaving behind. And for what reason? The reasons faded away. The emotions evaporated. The meaning … Continue reading 19 Nov. Searchlight.