I have always been plagued by a feeling of sadness. Not so much now in my thirties as I was in my teens and twenties. Now, having a family and a job, I simply don't have time for it. And that's the point - when I look at my sadness, I realise how selfish it … Continue reading 7 Nov 20. Sadness. Devotion. Nembutsu.
My mornings are often filled with negative self-talk and nerves-wrecking inner-chatter. I have decided to dive into the Nembutsu practice headfirst and abandon any efforts to reconcile it with my rational mind. Not because I think that Nembutsu would not pass the scrutiny of my rational mind but because there is nothing rational about my … Continue reading 4.02.20. Nembutsu.
10 Dec 19. Nembutsu.
I like getting up in the morning. Because of: my family, dog, books, music, gym, food, meditation, running, coffee, guitar and swimming. I hate getting up in the morning. Because of the anxious thoughts that torment me as soon as I open my eyes. Here is the drill. First, my mind displays a vision of … Continue reading 10 Dec 19. Nembutsu.
24 Jul 19. Annica on steroids.
Every year I visit my hometown in Poland. Being there only once a year gives me a unique opportunity to observe impermanence in action: how people and places change, getting older by a year in a split second when my ghostly memory is confronted by its ghostly apparition. A few days ago, while in Poland, … Continue reading 24 Jul 19. Annica on steroids.
I have memorised almost the whole “Faith in Mind” already. I learn and recite more or less all the time. My wife got used to it. I recite even when I walk my dog. My dog got used to it. Weather in Ireland is horrible. There I am walking among spasmodic tree branches and trembling … Continue reading 18 Apr.
I like walking my dog beacuse I like walking. And I like my dog. My dog is the happiest creature I have ever met (except for my daughter - up to the age of 4) even though he doesn't even own a pair of pants. I enjoy our walks also because I can be alone … Continue reading 29 Mar.
The End Draws Near — Great Middle Way
I have never shared any WordPress post on this blog before. Below quote summarises everything I appreciate about Pure Land Buddhism. And it arrived exactly when I needed it. And I needed it badly. My mind relies on nothing, so when night falls, I simply stop. My body lives nowhere, so at the break of … Continue reading The End Draws Near — Great Middle Way
9 Jan. Ordinary pain.
At the entrance to the pub in Dublin where I was celebrating New Year there was this security guy who was holding a huge mala while persistently turning the beads. What a peculiar sight among all the late night drinking mess. He just stood there, hardly moving at all, looking pretty dangerous, calmly scanning his … Continue reading 9 Jan. Ordinary pain.
5 Jan. Free will. Freddy Mercury.
I watched Black Mirror: Bandersnatch. It got me thinking about free will. I came across this article that states: Many neuroscientists, armed with functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI) and other brain scanning tools, argue that, now that we can peer into the brain, we can see that there is no "agent" there making choices. Is Buddhism … Continue reading 5 Jan. Free will. Freddy Mercury.
4 Jan. Pain. Suffering. Nembutsu.
I have realised that subconsciously I had been expecting that my Buddhist practice would eradicate all the pain from my life. Did Thich Quang Duc suffered? Or did he just experience pain? I have finished listening to an audio-book "Can't hurt me" by David Goggins. A great book about pain. In one of his talks, … Continue reading 4 Jan. Pain. Suffering. Nembutsu.