8 Sep. Three marks.

Last night I sat for a half an hour. Very late. The whole house was already asleep. My street already empty. Insanity. To just sit there alone in the dark. Who does that? Not trying to earn anything, not trying to do anything. And yet it feels right. Natural. This morning I woke up after …

24 and 25 Jul. A self in a ditch.

30 minutes on Sunday morning. My usual mediation time has been 20 for the past few years. I want to increase it. I want to see what will happen. Doing a one long sitting per week is a great method for increasing meditation time by 10 or 20 minutes on regular days. In my case …

7 Jul. Karma Kagyu.

Last night I sat for 20 minutes. First sitting at home since 26th of June. It felt great. I got to sit formally only once during the last 10 days. But I did meditate. Not meditating is not an option. What else is there? So I meditated while on a plane pretending to be asleep. …

24 June. I forgot.

I missed meditation on Friday. Thursday and Friday were very tough. Delightful sleepless night on Thursday. Half-asleep in work on Friday. At home - not as patient with my kids as I should have been. Very tired. Ridiculous thoughts about getting old. I can deal with pain, hunger, and thirst. But not with sleep deprivation. This …

21 June. TM.

I seem to be back on my routine of sitting twice a day for 20 minutes. For the past few days - only mantra practice. Yesterday, I stole 20 minutes from my lunch break to meditate. I moved my car to the distant part of the car-park. Sat comfortably inside, closed my eyes and started …

19 June. Metta.

I didn't get to meditate in the mornings on Saturday and Sunday. I managed to meditate in the evenings though. Over the weekend - some tensions with people. I hate when it happens. Unavoidable, though. So easy to become reactive and judgmental. That's the biggest harm - not what others do to you, but how …