During the past two months, I wasn’t faithful to my resolution to live in complete detachment from Dharma (God, I can’t even do that right!). I would open this or that book randomly from time to time. Especially the “Dhammapada” and “Zen Flesh, Zen Bones”. I came across the two passages in the latter - … Continue reading 28 Jan 20.
27 Jan 20.
After two months since I foolishly detached myself from Buddhism, I am now ready to summarise that period of my life with scientific precision: bleurgh.
24 Nov 19. Tempest.
I meditate. A focused mind = still mind = happy mind. This is the way the mind works. This is what the Buddha realised (re-discovered?). And luckily he cared to tell everyone else. And today, thousands of years ago, science is starting to catch up with his wisdom. But why would I want to turn … Continue reading 24 Nov 19. Tempest.
16 Nov. Killing the Buddha. Part 2.
I was very uncomfortable preparing this post. It felt like slandering my own parents. But here are the main reasons why I have decided to practice meditation only and to detach myself from all forms of Buddhism. In short - my thinking mind just can't handle the complexity, information overload and conflicting statements of Buddhism. … Continue reading 16 Nov. Killing the Buddha. Part 2.
9 Nov. Killing the Buddha.
What a relief to put Buddhism away. One day, I was reading some sutras about heavens, hells, angel-like creatures, punishment and reward in the afterlife. Paradoxically, it sounded way more familiar to the Christian apostate in me than it did to the Dhamma follower working on abandoning attachment, lessening the ego and awaking compassion here … Continue reading 9 Nov. Killing the Buddha.
19 Oct 19. Words.
The more I sit, the less I have to say about it. Words overwhelm me. Books, articles, blogs, podcasts, sutras, traditions, opinions and interpretations. And almost everything I have ever read, I have already forgotten anyway. Do we really have to go through all of this to be able to sit quietly on the bedroom … Continue reading 19 Oct 19. Words.
3 Oct 19.
So grateful for my practice. I sit as much as I can. I don’t even have to force myself to do so. The more I do it the more everything else reveals itself as dukkha, anicca, anatta. And the eternal question: How much should I meditate each day? My answer – applicable to myself - … Continue reading 3 Oct 19.
21 Sep 19. Lazarus of Bethany. Klingsor.
My practice is flourishing. This morning, I sat for an hour. So simple. Watch the breath. Short. Long. Deep. Shallow. You are not breathing. When you are breathing, you want to control the breath. It is not even that your body is breathing. Not even - the body is breathing. A body is breathing. When … Continue reading 21 Sep 19. Lazarus of Bethany. Klingsor.
14 Sep 19. I keep dying.
When I meditate each day, I observe how the default mode network in my brain takes over each time I lose my focus. And each time, I die a little bit. My body is there, but my mind is not. I pop in and out of existence. When my mind wanders - what is that which … Continue reading 14 Sep 19. I keep dying.
9 Sep 19. Deathless.
Awareness is the place of the deathless; unawareness is the place of death. The aware do not die; the unaware are as though dead already. And: You should see the world As a bubble, a mirage. If you look on it like this The King of Death can’t see you. The quotes from the Dhammapada. … Continue reading 9 Sep 19. Deathless.