We went for a walk in the forest. It was cold, wet and misty. My wife and daughter wanted to go back. "Let's take this path, it will take us back to the car", I said breaking the fourth precept. The ground became very muddy. I lifted my daughter up and carried her through the … Continue reading 20 Mar. Green man.
Inspired by this blog post here I thought about desire. That I have never really considered it to be a form of suffering. Not getting what I want - yes, that's suffering! But desire - no. The more I think about it the more I understand that desire is like physical pain, like loneliness, like … Continue reading 13 Sep. Desire.
Meditation is going great. (Talking to myself: Just sit and focus on the breath/body. When the focus is there - thoughts are missing. When the focus is lost - mind wandering begins. It's either this or that. Time is a string of present moments, even if meditation was poor just a second ago, it is no … Continue reading 2 Nov. A wreck under blue sky.
My sittings on Sunday and Monday nights were terrible. It took a lot of effort to sit still for those 17 and 18 minutes. I was very sleepy. Very agitated and grumpy afterward. It felt more like doing push-ups than meditating. This morning - 30 minutes. My mind worrying all the time. No matter how … Continue reading 3 Oct. Bad meditation! Bad, bad meditation!
I didn’t get to meditate as much as I wanted to last weekend because… family life. Saturday morning. 7 AM. I'm meditating. Ten minutes in. My 3yo daughter walks in holding her favorite plush cat - lovingly by the face - and demands cookies for breakfast. And so on and so forth. I finally got … Continue reading 25 Sep. More trees.
Saturday morning - 40 minutes. Until my daughter woke up. I was hoping to sit much longer than that. Saturday night - 30 minutes. Sunday night - 20 minutes. Each of them - great: Whenever a thought arose I remembered that the present moment always overwrites the past. So as soon as I realized that my … Continue reading 18 Sep. Dark clouds on the horizon.
Not sure what happened, but my night sittings seem to be better than the morning ones recently. When I'm sleepy I open my eyes. I start meditation with metta towards people who pissed me off, hurt me, I feel threatened by or heard about in the news. I do it wholeheartedly. Isn't all evil generated either … Continue reading 28 Aug. Concentration.
Last morning I sat for 60 minutes. It was hard. It was great. I wasn't concerned about the quality of sitting that much. So whenever my mind went astray I simply let it go. What a banal slogan. Not anymore - but only after I gave it a meaning through my own practice. For me let … Continue reading 23 Jul. Don’t react.
Last night's siting was amazing. Literally nothing happened. I should have been exhausted by the time I got to sit. I spent nearly 3 hours driving. I traveled to Wicklow Mountains where I visited the Indian Sculpture Park (can you imagine? In the middle of Irish fields and hills...) and Glendalough where I enjoyed unplanned … Continue reading 10 Jul. How many meditation sessions can you miss in one day?