We went for a walk in the forest. It was cold, wet and misty. My wife and daughter wanted to go back. "Let's take this path, it will take us back to the car", I said breaking the fourth precept. The ground became very muddy. I lifted my daughter up and carried her through the … Continue reading 20 Mar. Green man.
13 Sep. Desire.
Inspired by this blog post here I thought about desire. That I have never really considered it to be a form of suffering. Not getting what I want - yes, that's suffering! But desire - no. The more I think about it the more I understand that desire is like physical pain, like loneliness, like … Continue reading 13 Sep. Desire.
2 Nov. A wreck under blue sky.
Meditation is going great. (Talking to myself: Just sit and focus on the breath/body. When the focus is there - thoughts are missing. When the focus is lost - mind wandering begins. It's either this or that. Time is a string of present moments, even if meditation was poor just a second ago, it is no … Continue reading 2 Nov. A wreck under blue sky.
3 Oct. Bad meditation! Bad, bad meditation!
My sittings on Sunday and Monday nights were terrible. It took a lot of effort to sit still for those 17 and 18 minutes. I was very sleepy. Very agitated and grumpy afterward. It felt more like doing push-ups than meditating. This morning - 30 minutes. My mind worrying all the time. No matter how … Continue reading 3 Oct. Bad meditation! Bad, bad meditation!
25 Sep. More trees.
I didn’t get to meditate as much as I wanted to last weekend because… family life. Saturday morning. 7 AM. I'm meditating. Ten minutes in. My 3yo daughter walks in holding her favorite plush cat - lovingly by the face - and demands cookies for breakfast. And so on and so forth. I finally got … Continue reading 25 Sep. More trees.
18 Sep. Dark clouds on the horizon.
Saturday morning - 40 minutes. Until my daughter woke up. I was hoping to sit much longer than that. Saturday night - 30 minutes. Sunday night - 20 minutes. Each of them - great: Whenever a thought arose I remembered that the present moment always overwrites the past. So as soon as I realized that my … Continue reading 18 Sep. Dark clouds on the horizon.
28 Aug. Concentration.
Not sure what happened, but my night sittings seem to be better than the morning ones recently. When I'm sleepy I open my eyes. I start meditation with metta towards people who pissed me off, hurt me, I feel threatened by or heard about in the news. I do it wholeheartedly. Isn't all evil generated either … Continue reading 28 Aug. Concentration.
23 Jul. Don’t react.
Last morning I sat for 60 minutes. It was hard. It was great. I wasn't concerned about the quality of sitting that much. So whenever my mind went astray I simply let it go. What a banal slogan. Not anymore - but only after I gave it a meaning through my own practice. For me let … Continue reading 23 Jul. Don’t react.
10 Jul. How many meditation sessions can you miss in one day?
Last night's siting was amazing. Literally nothing happened. I should have been exhausted by the time I got to sit. I spent nearly 3 hours driving. I traveled to Wicklow Mountains where I visited the Indian Sculpture Park (can you imagine? In the middle of Irish fields and hills...) and Glendalough where I enjoyed unplanned … Continue reading 10 Jul. How many meditation sessions can you miss in one day?