I set the alarm to 5 AM this morning, so I could meditate a bit longer before leaving for work. But it didn't work out at all as it took me an hour and two damn good coffees to fully wake up (versus 20 minutes and one damn good coffee when I wake up at … Continue reading 6 Sep. Happy person. Angry person. Sad person.
I continue not to think or read too much about Buddhism. Well... with the exception of the book called "The teachings of Ajahn Chah". I just can't help it. I like this book so much. It is a book about the mind more so than it is about Buddhism. I spend that extra time playing … Continue reading 31 Aug. Breathing.
When I meditated tonight it occurred to me that thoughts are like breaths. That thinking is like breathing. That each thought - just like a single breath - has a beginning, peak and end. I contribute this discovery to my recent reading about Mahamudra and the "pointing-out instructions". So I sat there looking at each thought … Continue reading 14 Jun. A thought. A breath.
I managed to meditate over the weekend. My sittings were not as long as I would hope for. Because... family life. When I meditate I use Insight Timer app. But over the past few weeks - on top of my usual practice - I meditated at random times without using any timer whatsoever. When my … Continue reading 11 June. “Path of Ultimate Profundity.”
I went out drinking on Saturday. I had to. I'm not interested at all in losing my mindfulness and that tiny amount of wisdom I have managed to acquire to the most useless of all the drugs - alcohol. But due to the social and cultural aspects of drinking sometimes it is extremely hard to … Continue reading 5 Jun. Mahamudra.
I sat for an hour this morning. I didn't get enough sleep so my mind was scattered. And that was fine. Each time I managed to realise that I was not focused felt like a small victory. My morning meditation was also a great opportunity to observe the quality of my thoughts. It reminded me … Continue reading 2 Jun. Faith.
I tried to sit longer on Saturday. But my kids woke up and I had to stop just after 5 minutes. I managed to sit for an hour on Sunday. I have injured my left knee at the gym last week so I sat in the chair. 40 minutes of mindfulness of the breath and … Continue reading 27 May. My inner child.
I woke up at 5AM. I sat to meditate at 5.10. I fell asleep. I woke up at 5.37. I left for work.
The title of my previous post is a quote from Verses on the Faith Mind by Sengcan (translated by Richard B. Clarke). Tao Te Ching and Faith in Mind - those poems have all the air and sunlight I need. I didn't sit this morning. I woke up feeling beaten down by sad dreams. It takes time I … Continue reading 24 May. Things.
I meditated with my 7yo son last night. Again. We counted out breaths. He asked me to do it. I meditated last night. After 8 hours in the air-conditioned nightmare, gym, minding kids, playing dolls with my daughter (not something I particularly enjoy), reading a bedtime story to my daughter and then to my son … Continue reading 23 May. Emptiness here. Emptiness there.